Dealing with an addiction is hard. I get it. I totally get it. It’s a struggle to make it through the day. Do you know what I think is harder? Loving someone with an addiction.
Now, let’s be real. You can be addicted to anything. Drugs, alcohol, sex… the list goes on and on. I know when you’re getting high or drunk or whatever it is you think you need that it’s all about you. You’re just thinking about yourself. I just need another pill. I just need 3 more pills. In that split moment, you’re not thinking about anyone else but the person in the mirror. What about everyone else?
What about them? What about that woman or man laying next to you every night? What about that little voice you hear every day saying “Mommy”, “Daddy”, “Grandma”, “Grandpa”? What about the people who have loved you from the first day you stepped into their lives? Don’t you know they can see you??
The pain that they are feeling is far worse than anything you’ve ever felt. I’ve birthed a child and it doesn’t even come close to the pain of a broken heart. Waking up every morning and your heart shattering again. Labor pain ends.
Nothing I’m saying is going to help. I know that. You have to want to put others before yourself. You have to want to start a new life. You have to want to separate yourself from the things that have brought you down so far. The next time you’re sitting there just thinking about yourself. I hope you hear that little voice telling you how much they love you.
**I wrote this mainly for myself. I am dealing with some things at the moment that I just felt needed to be written. But maybe you’re thinking you’re alone, you’re not.**